It was a month ago this morning that hubby, Shadow, Ducky, and I said goodbye to our sweet girl, Callie, and let her go to cross the Rainbow Bridge.
Whether or not the Rainbow Bridge exists doesn’t really matter. It’s the belief that when my own time comes to leave this earth, my sweet girls – Kissy, Callie, and whichever of my pups go before me – will be there waiting for me that makes saying goodbye here a bit easier.
Callie’s spirit is always here with me in one way or another; but there are days – like today – I just want so much to be able to bury my face in the soft, golden fur of her neck ruff and tell her “I love you sweet girl”. Or watch Ducky try to hump her back leg while she’s trying to sleep. Or watch her clean Shadow’s eyes and ears and forehead and then just snuggle with her.
I just miss my girl so much it hurts. And, as much as I try to help Shadow adjust, I know it has to be even harder for her and on her. After all, with the exception of the nights of Callie’s two ACL surgeries, they always slept together from Shadow’s first night with us at seven weeks old. Callie slept on the carpeted side of the gate in the kitchen door to keep her company, even though she had already earned the privilege of sleeping in our bedroom with us. We didn’t have a crate in the kitchen – just a dog bed and a slew of puppy pee pads – so most mornings I found Shadow sleeping on one side of the gate and Callie on the other. (Until Shadow figured out how to climb up and over the gate. 🙂 But that’s a post for another day.)
We have good days when we can think of Callie and smile or laugh without tears. And days like today when every little – or big – thing that reminds us of Callie’s time with us necessitates a full box of Kleenex. Eventually, I know, the good days will outnumber the ones like today. But for now, writing blog posts like this helps me get through the difficult days. Knowing I have friends and family who understand, in this pet blogging community and outside of it, helps too.
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