First of all, I promise I’m not going to bore you to death with weekly updates on how hubby, Shadow, Ducky, and I are coping with our loss of Callie’s physical presence in our lives. In fact, I hope to keep this a relatively short post.
Secondly, I want to thank everyone – family and friends – for all the prayers, kind thoughts left in the comments of my blog posts and Facebook posts as well as emails and sympathy cards. They are all very much appreciated, more than words could ever express. And special thanks as well to our wonderful vet, Dr. Steve Colquhoun, his lovely wife, and the entire staff at Sunrise Animal Hospital who have been there every step of the way for us, taking care of our sweet girl. I could never sing their praises loud or long enough!
Sam — aka Hubby — has been my rock this past week. When I’ve needed a hug, or a shoulder to cry on, he has been there. When I haven’t felt like cooking, he has taken over the kitchen or agreed to go out to eat. And when I needed a break from reality, he has taken Shadow and Ducky out in the backyard for me. I know he misses our sweet Callie, but he has held back his own tears to help me.
Ducky misses Callie. She looks for her at various times during the day, but goes right back to playing or whatever when her buddy doesn’t materialize. I miss laughing at Ducky’s attempts to hump Callie’s midsection while she’s asleep.
My poor Shadow seems so lost at times. She looks for Callie almost constantly, and I swear I can hear her sigh dejectedly when her older sister doesn’t appear nearby. She has been napping in all of Callie’s favorite spots. I guess it gives her some comfort to be able to pick up Callie’s scent around the house. She still doesn’t want to eat at times. I literally have to spoon feed her at times to get her started, and at times to get her to finish as well. It may be spoiling her, but my major concern right now is getting her to eat enough food to keep from starving herself. I’ve added doggy vitamins to her diet for now to supplement the vitamins in the food. And I’ve been giving her extra love and attention to lift her spirits as well as my own.
Finally, there’s yours truly. Most of the past week I’ve been nearly as inconsolable as Shadow, dissolving into a puddle of tears at every thought or mention of Callie. It wasn’t until late Saturday evening that I could finally talk or write about her without needing the whole box of tissues. I still have my choked-up, tearful moments, but I can “recover” faster. Especially when Ducky picks up on my sadness and runs over to give me a face full of puppy kisses.